I've realized, one can actually chose to fort out how many percentage they want to. So... what? That actually means I feel unfairness @ a lot of circumstances always, but what could I do? Even if I talk sense sometimes, not many would listen as well. Eventually, it leads up to testing of my faith, sometimes, I find myself lacking in a lot of areas, but I chose to believe that He has greater plans for me. Even if I failed in a lot of areas, or fall a lot of times, I've come to realize that's not the point, the point is actually to hold on & believe that something will eventually come out of all these. Actually.. There's a lot of grudges that I bear, there's a lot of grieves that I've, but sometimes, things are better left unsaid isn't it? By saying that doesn't mean to keep quiet & do nothing, for me, it just means giving myself extra time to think.. whether is there any better ways to make things right rather than creating another conflict/problem which I wouldn't want to.. & by saying all these, some can actually feel that I must have a lot of problems bothering me, yes. I do have lots of problems currently, but I believe hard times doesn't last forever, but happy moments doesn't really as well. It's just that (moments)..